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“…And then Thor-bear said, “You listen well, Lo-kitty, I…” And then Thor-bear is spirited off by the flying Iron-bear. Lo-kitty amusedly says to the empty space recently occupied by his brother bear, “I’m listening.”
Lo-kitty then resettles himself to watch the battle between Thor-bear, Iron-bear and Captain Puppy. Lo-kitty smiles at their silly antics…“
so looking at this post and thinking about Loki trying to lift Mjolnir and about how it ties into Loki’s general issues with self-worth – and specifically the way in which Loki measures himself against metrics that were never meant for him.
which is to say that: Mjolnir is Thor’s weapon, enchanted specifically to respond to “who is worthy…[of] the power of Thor”. Thor’s being able to lift it is about Thor, and a particular type of worthiness that’s not meant to be a metric for Loki. (Odin wasn’t trying to test Loki, here.)
but for Loki, the only metric that matters is Thor’s. there is no “worthiness” that is not encompassed in Thor’s worthiness. he measures his own value in the ways it compares directly to Thor’s value, as opposed to the idea that people can be valuable – or, to keep using the same word, worthy – for different reasons.
for Loki, to be worthy is to be Thor. there’s no other possible way to measure up.
Yes, it’s true. I’d add that I think Loki only ends up judging worthiness by Thor’s metric because the society he grew up in would agree that’s the metric that matters (we see how Loki’s treated vs. Thor’s celebrity). In an ideal world, Loki’s own talents would be worthy and respectable (and this is what Loki wants–he spent centuries learning magic because he wanted to cultivate those skills), but they’re not. They never have been. That’s what creates his struggles with self-worth.
This bothers me so much. Because Loki has so many admirable traits and skills. I hate that he can’t let go of thinking that success is defined as being Thor.
Just onceI needed Loki to meet someone who looked up to him for all of his traits: the cunning, the magic, the diplomacy, the stealth-
And instead of being referred to as “Loki, the brother of Thor” I need someone to say “Thor, the brother of Loki.”
Yeeeeah, this is so true. “Worth” to Loki is being Thor. What Loki believes is wrong with him is that he is himself, inherently unworthy, and that the only way to fix that is to become Thor.
Remember the deleted scenes from TDW??
Loki dressed in red, Thor’s colour, which is covering up his normal green clothing.
Wielding Thor’s hammer…
“Giving the people what they want”… because he knows they want Thor, not Loki.
He is not building statues of gold to himself, now is he?
He is still destroying himself here, thinking he needs to turn himself into Thor to not be worthless. He really believes he has no value.
And look at his face when he remembers what is real. What he really is… He is Loki. And he needs to lie himself into a delusion in order to handle that reality. I get why they cut this. It’s crushing.
And all of this wouldn’t make me feel so sickeningly disgusted and hopeless if Marvel didn’t try to “fix” the pain and dysfunction with this bullshit:
Being admonished as “not good enough” by Thor himself.
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